hm?

to amanda and anyone who dares to give me a good reason why i should REMAIN in THIS state- i'd like you to actually fucking spend time telling ME why i should REMAIN in this particular STATE. there's a great chance that you won't take the time to figure out a way to tell me because it's too fucking INCONVENIENT for YOU. proof that i really have NOTHING to remain in this opportunity-less state. you're just lucky (if you actually care as much as you claim you do) that i found a job that'd actually hire me- so my mind doesn't do crazy things outta boredum. it's guaranteed to happen if i go back to courage ken-do-nothing-but-take-advantage-of-vulnerable-adultsy. i'm sure they found out at camp courage a long time ago.. it'll happen again. which is probably part of why i got sent home in the middle of my stay one year. i guess it's your choice because i don't have the ability to do anything without the approval of people who don't give a fuck about me unless it's convenient or beneficial to THEM. cluck about that now.. since judging by the people who recently looked at my facebook timeline- you must be acting like you're smart and i'm disabled and stupid bitching to probably the only other people in this world who feel an obligation to show "care" about me. it's so nice to have "support" that would rather talk ABOUT me than take iniative to REALLY *HELP* ME. people doubt my ptsd i'm sure.. it's difficult to do that if you really have knowledge of my so-called "support".